Title: Not That Kind Of Girl
Author: Siobhan Vivian
Published: Scholastic/PUSH, September 2010
Purchased: Downloaded my copy from Amazon.com
Natalie Sterling wants to be in control. She wants her friends to be loyal. She wants her classmates to elect her student council president. She wants to find the right guy, not the usual jerk her school has to offer. She wants a good reputation, because she believes that will lead to good things.
But life is messy, and it’s very hard to be in control of it. Not when there are freshman girls running around in a pack, trying to get senior guys to sleep with them. Not when your friends have secrets they’re no longer comfortable sharing. Not when the boy you once dismissed ends up being the boy you want to sleep with yourself – but only in secret, with nobody ever finding out.
Slut or saint? Winner or loser? Natalie is getting tired of these forced choices – and is now going to find a way to live life in the sometimes messy, sometimes wonderful in-between.
Nobody is perfect. While Natalie always wants to do the right thing and get the approval from those whom she looks up to, she stumbles when her head and heart are giving her opposite messages.
What’s the right way to handle disappointment, sarcasm, or… humiliation? Would it ever be possible to make things right when everything in life is spiraling out of control?
In the beginning, Natalie believes that she has her high school life all figured out. She has good grades and she is proud of being an honor roll student. She feels she has a duty to protect her best friend and the freshman girls. She also thinks she already knows a lot about how girls should or shouldn’t behave. Because she is somewhat stiff about what’s right and wrong, Natalie faces her own turmoil when she does things that she perceives as missteps.
Life is about choices and so goes the saying: “what you sow is what you reap”. As Natalie uses her evolving judgment to make choices, she lives the consequences of the goods, the bads and the uglies.
What I particularly like about Natalie is how in the end she chooses honesty over self-directed shame and makes amends to those whom she loves. It’s inspiring to watch her transform as she becomes aware of all the kinds of girl she is and be okay with every bit of herself.